In case you’re wondering just how awkward the audition process was for 50 Shades of Gray, apparently the answer is very. Like…verrrrrrrrry. Turns out Pretty Little Liars actress Lucy Hale auditioned for the part of Anastasia Steele and recently described it as truly mortifying.

“I was very young,” she told The Associated Press. “It had to have been, not 10 years ago, it was a while ago, and I was, like, mortified.” She went on to explain that while the audition wasn’t “actual scenes from the movie,” she did have to read a “very sexually forward monologue.”

“I didn’t really even know what I was saying in the audition, like I didn’t understand” she said. “I was a little naive about it all … It was good for me because it scared the crap out of me to do an audition like that.”

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